Disintegration

I remember
When every breeze of fresh air carried a special message
But I don’t remember
When my life abandoned me, leaving the world

Colourless.

I remember
When the future shone through the curtains each morning
But I don’t remember
When the Self departed from my mind, creating a black hole of

Nothingness.

I remember
When I used to take reality for granted, just like the hopes for tomorrow
But I don’t remember
When the first thoughts disappeared, converting my brain into

Emptiness.

I remember
When I expected the next season to be bright and fruitful
But I don’t remember
When my eyes began to wither, memories forming a river of

Hopelessness.

I remember
When I was in control of all my cognitive processes
But I don’t remember
When my own consciousness disintegrated, rendering everything

Meaningless.

I remember, I remember…

I don’t remember.

~ by misspeaceful on 21 February, 2009.